Post TX 2 - Getting Away
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Whoever is in charge of ordering my life is doing a perfect job.
Sarah and I had booked 4 days away many months ago. As the time approached I wondered more and more whether I would be up to it. Just over 3 weeks ago, feeling very sick and weary, I was all set to cancel. Then, 2 weeks ago I experienced treatment failure.
So, here I was 2 weeks post TX with a pre planned ready made break.
It has been brilliant. Although still very much in post TX toxic withdrawal and experiencing many of the symptoms of being ON treatment I can certainly say I am no longer living INSIDE treatment.
Had I been inside treatment the time away would have been a living hell. The reason for this is because the time away was spent at a conference with about 70 people in attendance. Not only was there all these people but also the material we looked at during the time was related to emotional and spiritual counselling covering some very heavy subjects.
It was in fact, session number 5 of a series of 6 four day seminar weekends which I have been attending over the past two years. The previous ones have been so good I did not want to miss this one. Because I was post treatment I was able to go and had a great time meeting up with all the people I had met at previous venues and who I now knew as friends. And also, having a massive break from hepc and tx by focusing on something totally different.
Although generally I am still in poor shape I was able to handle this. Emotionally, I am often still a mess but as I was amongst friends who would not take advantage of my vulnerability, it didn’t matter. Very strong emotions and tears were very much on the agenda for many of the others attending the conference, so I fitted in OK.
Brilliant therapy and a real life saver.
I really do recommend getting away as soon as you feel up it post tx.
It doesn’t have to be far or cost a lot of money. The important thing is distancing yourself from the disease and everything related to it and becoming part of normal living again.
My break wasn’t entirely normal as it was quite intense emotional work at times but I was very pleased to note that, whereas inside tx I would have avoided all things to do with counselling, yet, just 2 weeks post tx I found myself very comfortable learning new skills, and being in counselling situations of one sort or another.
Definitely, as soon as you can post TX, make plans to get away. And leave the computer and all talk of illness behind.
I have come back and made some radical life changing decisions based on my own insights and the insights of 70 other highly trained individuals.
The conference and those who attended it reminded me of what a safe place really is.
I have been in the company of people dedicated to helping others escape from self abuse and the abuse that comes from others. I quite like it.
I will be avoiding all unsafe places in the future.
Whoever is in charge of ordering my life is doing a perfect job.
Sarah and I had booked 4 days away many months ago. As the time approached I wondered more and more whether I would be up to it. Just over 3 weeks ago, feeling very sick and weary, I was all set to cancel. Then, 2 weeks ago I experienced treatment failure.
So, here I was 2 weeks post TX with a pre planned ready made break.
It has been brilliant. Although still very much in post TX toxic withdrawal and experiencing many of the symptoms of being ON treatment I can certainly say I am no longer living INSIDE treatment.
Had I been inside treatment the time away would have been a living hell. The reason for this is because the time away was spent at a conference with about 70 people in attendance. Not only was there all these people but also the material we looked at during the time was related to emotional and spiritual counselling covering some very heavy subjects.
It was in fact, session number 5 of a series of 6 four day seminar weekends which I have been attending over the past two years. The previous ones have been so good I did not want to miss this one. Because I was post treatment I was able to go and had a great time meeting up with all the people I had met at previous venues and who I now knew as friends. And also, having a massive break from hepc and tx by focusing on something totally different.
Although generally I am still in poor shape I was able to handle this. Emotionally, I am often still a mess but as I was amongst friends who would not take advantage of my vulnerability, it didn’t matter. Very strong emotions and tears were very much on the agenda for many of the others attending the conference, so I fitted in OK.
Brilliant therapy and a real life saver.
I really do recommend getting away as soon as you feel up it post tx.
It doesn’t have to be far or cost a lot of money. The important thing is distancing yourself from the disease and everything related to it and becoming part of normal living again.
My break wasn’t entirely normal as it was quite intense emotional work at times but I was very pleased to note that, whereas inside tx I would have avoided all things to do with counselling, yet, just 2 weeks post tx I found myself very comfortable learning new skills, and being in counselling situations of one sort or another.
Definitely, as soon as you can post TX, make plans to get away. And leave the computer and all talk of illness behind.
I have come back and made some radical life changing decisions based on my own insights and the insights of 70 other highly trained individuals.
The conference and those who attended it reminded me of what a safe place really is.
I have been in the company of people dedicated to helping others escape from self abuse and the abuse that comes from others. I quite like it.
I will be avoiding all unsafe places in the future.
posted by Paul | 4:38 AM
1 Comments:
Paul,
I know what you mean, the difference in being with people that want the best for you. It's very healing isn't it? I'm thrilled you are doing so well. Keep it up and keep up the blogging. It's good for all of us.
Nadine
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